i looooooooove being reminded how downright lonely i could potentially feel...

M: don't you miss a certain someone?
I: huh no i don't have anyone to miss
M: that's kinda sad
I: no it's easier that way

i absolutely hate being made to feel like i need to depend on someone's company.

dependence is taxing, painful, disempowering.

on all sides.

no one is fond of those feelings.

i won't let my guard down like that anymore.

lost inside

i hate it when i allow myself to ponder. the worst place you can be is inside your own head...

fingers crossed

I've recently come to accept that I am completely incapable of making the transition from frigid to ice cold... but that's not to say I'm not trying.

Something refreshing has come my way and it would be a waste to take it for granted.

Cheers to new encounters, and the chance to maintain the old ones.

teach a man how to fish

i wish i had learned about compound interest, stocks, bonds, and shares before i discovered i hated maths.

if parents really wanted their children to be successful, they would teach their children how to actually maintain their savings or "trust funds" instead of setting them up for failure.

how do they expect their children to become stable and independent when parents are at the root, inflicting the deepest psychological stigma...

insomnia

I have a sleeping problem.

My standards of normalcy are what people might consider troublesome, unhealthy... to the point that I actually might need "help".

While I don't quite see the harm in falling asleep at odd hours of the night (or day), I won't deny that my severe lack of a "healthy" sleeping pattern does indeed take a toll on my psyche somewhat.

I just need another routine added on to my current one to balance things out.

change could be good

i set a goal for myself,
that when i eventually get a job, i'd get a new phone.
preferably a blackberry.
crackberry.
again.
LO AND BEHOLD.
the time has come.
but i need to prioritize.

BAH

we'll see.

that guy on that Lupe Fiasco dude's song

Thought I'd take it upon myself to put a name to that voice.

Matthew Santos.

( matthew santos . com )

He commands your attention in more ways than one: his vocal range is incredible, he's a good looking guy, and... whatever, you just need to see him live when or if you can.

if you’re filipino and don’t already know about him, shame on you.

I actually saw and heard him perform live with Lupe Fiasco when my sister and I went to see Kanye West in San Jose during the 2008 Glow in the Dark Tour (with N.E.R.D & Rihanna), and tonight - all thanks to my sister again - at The Mint along Pico Blvd. as Trevor Hall's opening act. 

Matthew at The Mint performing w/ Annalisa
10-10-10

I was flabbergasted with my sister's mention of how very few Filipinos are familiar with a musical compatriot, given his style and heritage. Okay, so he may only be part Filipino, but the fact that he keeps SANTOS in his stage name should be enough reason for Pinoys to identify with the guy and be proud of the connection.

Am I right? or am I RIGHT? and I don't think Matthew would be opposed to the idea of doing gigs in the PI either.


One thing's for sure, neither Lupe Fiasco or Matthew Santos get as much recognition and hype as they deserve. Matthew's musical style, however, takes on a totally different sound and feel from what you hear him doing with Lupe...  more laid back, oftentimes swoon-worthy...


No proper words could describe how much talent is packed into this guy. In a league of his own, you can’t compare him to John Mayer or Jason Mraz or Jack Johnson, he’s just… Matthew Santos. he takes your breath away and, if you happen to catch a show on this current tour, Annalisa will too.


Annalisa Nutt - My Remedy (Matthew Santos cover)

Annalisa Nutt joined Matthew Santos on tour after he found a video of her piano rendition of his song "My Remedy". He describes her as having the "voice of an angel" and it's not far from the truth. There's an ethereal quality to her voice, so positively haunting, and coupled with Matthew's musical prowess, you actually feel yourself being whisked away.

Lame? Yup. Told you I didn't have proper words.